I feel so trapped…I’m supposed to be my own person and yet I still don’t have the fucking chance to be. And little miss “I don’t want anything right now/I don’t have time for anything right now” can just go and do whatever she wants I suppose…meanwhile I can’t even be alone with my friends because lo and behold she’s in every single one of my classes, involved in everything I’m involved in…and the kicker is she wouldn’t be if she hadn’t met me! It’s like this area I carved out for myself has been tainted and now I’m either supposed to be a complete tool and go along with things or try to do it all over again. Well I don’t want to. I was there first, and bigtime news flash, most of the people who you think are your friends are so fucking disappointed in you and are just acting nice because they don’t want to be caught in the middle of anything. And it doesn’t help that you’ve become such a fucking fake version of yourself, sort of like a certain roommate I once had. Just fucking grow some balls and tell me the fucking truth for once in the last 4 months. Shit or get off the fucking pot.
Posted on Tuesday, 15 September 2009
